In my previous post, I talked about the the unsolicited help I get from strangers and how I felt that I was overly sensitive. My sensitivity stems not only from the perceived scrutiny of others, but my mostly me. When Maia and I are out in public, I have to be pretty calculating and often fall into the trap of second guessing myself. So when a someone chimes in, as irrational as it is, they have hit my Achilles Heel, thus proving that I should not be left alone with Maia. Worse yet, these people may just be being nice, but in my heightened state, I condemn them as doubters of The All Powerful Misty.
To those seeking a solution to such a dilemma, you are SOL. As crippling as self doubt can be, I think it is something that makes me a decent parent. I don't portend to know what I doing makes me the perfect mama and I am more willing to scrap what's not working in favor of Plan B. Hey, wait.... Maybe I am perfect...
Rarely in life is anyone or anything "perfect"... so maybe you are just the "perfect" mama for Maia.
ReplyDeleteI think all parents feel insecure in public. So many varables, so many potentially judgemental strangers, etc. I always feel like everyone has got it more together than I do. For the most part they do, but especially since my back surgery I'm very defensive because I've worked very hard to get back to a place where I can take Riley out in public by myself again.
ReplyDeleteUnless she falls asleep in the car before we get home in wich case, HELP! I haven't been able to get her from the car to her bed asleep since she was 9mo old. (: